My life is asking for it's bowl of cherries...WHERE'S THE DAMN CHERRIES!?

Life……… could be……… better

I am so tired and exhausted. Not just physically, but mentally too. I wish I had a steady job. I keep looking at the classifieds and I just don’t qualify for all the design jobs out there. It sucks. I found a great one today, but I don’t have enough experience.

I also ran over a concrete barrier today. Nothing huge, just one of those small ones that they have in between parking spaces. But this one is a parking garage, so it was a little smaller, but enough to make scraping noises. So of course, I am all freaked out now. Amy says the car is okay, but I am so paranoid.

And I so wish I had a shitload of money. Enough to build my home (in cash), pay off all my debt, get new cars and all the electronics that I could possibly want.

So, does anyone want to give me money? I’ll dance for you (and the more you give me, the more clothes I will keep on.)

Really. I’m serious. You can pay me through paypal and my email address. It’s really easy. And I do have a webcam so that you can see me dance.

Just, uh, let me know, okay?

Boredom... the mother of invention

Well... it's been awhile. I am so bored right now. Waiting for art files so I can do some work.

My life has been very stressful.

I don't even know where to begin. I guess not working as much as I would like is stressful, then add having another baby with no health insurance, would add to that. Add to that a parent who complains about money (with a small degree of being right) doesn't help any.

My birthday is coming up, but with me being so stressed, I don't know how I am going to enjoy it. I hate doing the finances, but Amy doesn't like to do them either, and someone has to. I hate that we have no money. I want to pay of my card, car, get a bigger home that is on land I own, get a new washer and dryer, a new fridge, stove and entertainment center. A nice sectional would be nice too.

I want to start up college funds for the kids and retirement funds for Amy and I, but without money, that is impossible to do. I feel like I am in this sinking hole and I just can't out.

Food would be nice too. I can't remember the last time our fridge and cupboards were stocked with food. It always seems there is nothing to eat. And since Amy has been feeling sick and not feeling like cooking dinner, her usual knack of making something out of nothing, isn't happening.

I am so depressed all the time. I have learned how to keep up a happy appearance, but even Amy can see through that. I love how she assure me everything will be alright, but lately that hasn't helped.

I just need a miracle. or a job.

the art of mobility & valentines day

Well, my laptop is in the final boxing stage as I write this. It just has to go to the shipping stage and its on its way!

I am so excited. I am breaking away from "The Desk" and becoming more mobile. I will be able to design without getting out of bed!

I am also excited, my best friend is selling me her really nice Wacom Intuos Graphic Drawing Tablet for really cheap! So now I can draw and paint like I used too, without the mess or an easel and paints taking up room! I can even sit on the couch and do it!

Life is just going okay so far (I know, after reading the above, I should be smacked). This year started out rocky, but I think it could be smoothing itself out (knock on plastic!). I was amazed at how much my tax refund was this year. I didn't think I would get that much. Thank goodness I have a really good tax person (thanks dad!).

I think Amy is gonna get the Roomba! The little robotic vacuum. That way we can keep our floors and stuff clean all the time and only REALLY vacuum once or twice a month! I can't wait! (UPDATE: we had to get her one when she was on bedrest while pregnant with Riley!)

I hope life is going good for you! I hope it continues to go well for me. Now that I will be mobile, I hope to contribute to my blog more and possibly the forum!

Happy Valentine's Day! I love you Amy, Courtney, Dominic, Mikayla, Mom, Sissy, Dad, Da Boyz and all!

Spending Money!

Well, Tax time again...

I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR! I get to spend money. I just purchased a new Dell Inspirion 9200 with a bunch of cool stuff! I can't wait until it comes (two weeks--I won't last that long!)

But at the same times it's depressing. My benefits were just cancelled due to lack of hours at work. Ick! Hopefully my agent can find me a new assignment asap. I can't afford $90 for my allergy meds.

So if you can spare the mojo and prayers and love, it would be appreciated!

Wil Wheaton, Dolly Parton and Begging for Cash

Just wanted to update and let you know that Wil Wheaton was at Gnomedex at you can download his reading/presentation here. I just downloaded it an I really enjoyed it. If your a fan of Wil's or even if your not, go download it and give it a listen. It's worth it and it's free!

On another note. TWO WEEKS UNTIL I GO SEE DOLLY IN CONCERT!!!!!

I so cannot wait! It has been 11 years since her last major concert. I saw here at the State Fair 11 years ago. From crappy seats. Thanks Sis for picking crappy seats. I'm not bitter!

But this year I bought the tickets and got some great seats!

ALSO! I NEED CASH!

I am saving up for a G4 Powerbook and need $3000. So don't give me gifts, just give me the cash you would have spent on me! I really need this laptop, so you'll be contributing to a good cause!

Thanks!

Currently in my iPod:

• Hollywood USA & Coming Out of Hiding - RuPaul
• Fever - Celine Dion
• Lose my breath - Destiny's Child
• Same old Lang Syne - Dan Fogelberg
• Alka yagnik
• Amy Hanai'ali'i
• Oui Ohana

Refinance the easy way.

I just closed on my refinance of my vehicle.

I went to Lendingtree.com and told them what I needed and Wells Fargo came through for me and paid off a few Credit Cards too!

Only took an hour to close on the loan and I have insurance to pay for the car should something happen to me or Amy. Which Chrysler didn't offer.

We dropped our payment down to $200 a month instead of $400! So this is a good thing!

Patience.....is a virtue

Well, sometime this week they will move the trailer to its new home... then finish it and we can move in... I have no patience right now. I want to move in NOW!

And I really want things. I want a new sectional/fold out couch, a recliner, bookshelves, home theatre system, a dual-layer DVD burner, an external hardrive, iPod accessories, Altec InMotion speakers for iPod, home wireless network, Wonder Woman complete first season on DVD, Celine's new live vegas CD, a bedroom set, a new Desk...

But the house comes first, then maybe I can "beg" some stuff out of Amy. Or at least try really hard.

Guys weekend is coming up soon. I can and can't wait. As a Fat man, food is my top priority and right now only 2 meals are guaranteed and I have no idea what I am supposed to bring...

Somedays I feel like I am drowning. I don't know if it is stress, or what. But I feel like no one else is worrying about things, so I have to. I know Amy takes care of a lot of stuff... but, I still feel like the weight of everything is on me.

It doesn't help when she complains about me not doing stuff around the house. I work hard. I may sit on my ass at work, but I have to use my mind and it leaves me mentally drained. I come home late at night and am so awake. But then during the day, I feel like I need to relax to recharge myself, so I don't feel like cleaning, or doing chores. Work is my chore. Be thankful I have a job and go to it. And money... I work hard and I know it is going to pay bills, but I would like to be able to go out to dinner with my coworker once a week, or be able to have pop everynight at work, or buy a DVD burner, or take my family out to eat. I like to splurge a little. I would like for Amy to have her table saw or biscuit joint tool thingy. Maybe when we finally move I will feel less stressed and depressed.